Do you ever feel like something is missing, even when everyone around tells you that you have all you need?
When I was 29 , I had a full time job I enjoyed, while working on my degree part time. I was part of a clogging team that traveled to Europe most summers. I had lots of friends to spend time traveling, listening to music, dancing and eating together. It was a fun filled life and everything seemed great.
Then without warning, my mother, who was my best friend died suddenly. I lost my joy for life, not wanting to go out and began eating emotionally. My friends would ask when I would I start smiling again. I was in an emotional fog and did not know how to get out. Three months after she died, she visited me in my dream state and we talked all night. I can still see her pink gown and her smile as if it was yesterday. The next morning I woke up and was thrilled with life and ready to get out and start living!
I realized that I had let my spiritual and intuitive side slip away from me over the last decade. I made a conscious decision to renew this important part in my life. I promised myself that in 4 years when I finished my BS , I would “expand my horizons” to include more than the physical world around me.
A few months after receiving my degree , I began focusing my attention on spirituality. A friend asked me to visit Health Ecology in Cameron Village in Raleigh, NC. I met Veronica Vela, a Reiki Master . She suggested I study the “Course in Miracles”. I told her I did not know anything about miracles. She convinced me to start the weekly study group. I remained in this group for 2 years.
The Course In Miracles changed my life. I found the basis to life is love and there is nothing else. The opposite of love is fear, but fear cannot exist if you come from love. The hardest part was learning forgiveness. I learned that to forgive someone does not mean you condone their actions, but that you will not let that negative emotion hold your back from your true light. This is especially true when learning to forgive yourself. There are no mistakes, just opportunities to learn and grow. Living in the past keeps you from expanding your horizons and have a truly fulfilling life!
I have tried to live my life with love and forgiveness and it has been truly remarkable. I got married at 36 and had my only child at 42. I found myself a widow at 50 but knew that my spiritual strength would get me through this. A few years ago, I was struck with autoimmune arthritis and began walking with a cane overnight. Within the next year, I had double knee replacement and was white water rafting. My friend and mentor, Angela Coulter, originator of Trinity Energy progression, lead me back to meditation and connecting with my spiritual self. This helped me through a difficult time , reinforcing the power of connection to your inner strength.
I now work in energy healing and nutritional health. I became a Trinity Energy Progression Practitioner, Reiki Master Practitioner and Ordained Minster in the last several years. “Expanding my horizons” in this area of my life has been one of the most fulfilling things I have ever done. I feel at peace with myself, even when it seems that everything else is falling apart. I know that how I perceive the world defines my life. I truly feel that life is wonderful and I can not wait for something new!
Always look within for guidance when it gets tough in the “real world”. Try listening to a recorded meditation to quiet your thoughts. http://roadtoawakening.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/HeartFocus-7mins.mp3 If you have trouble doing this, ask a friend for help. The next choice is to seek someone that does energy healing and that you feel connected to. Look for someone who comes from unconditional love and without judgement of your thoughts and feelings.
I have been truly blessed by my spiritual mentors. I love helping others find the peace I have found.