May 202015
 

sunset

Do you ever feel like something is missing, even when everyone around tells you that you have all you need?

When I was 29 , I had a full time job I enjoyed, while  working on my degree part time. I was part of a clogging team that traveled to Europe most summers.  I had lots of friends to spend time traveling, listening to music, dancing and eating together.    It was a fun filled  life and everything seemed great.

Then without warning, my mother, who was my best friend died suddenly.   I  lost my joy for life, not wanting to go out and began eating emotionally. My friends would ask when I would I start smiling again.  I was in an emotional fog and did not know how to get out.  Three months after she died, she visited me in my dream state and we talked all night. I can still see her pink gown and her smile as if it was yesterday.  The next morning I woke up and was thrilled with life and ready to get out and start living!

I realized that I had let my spiritual and intuitive side slip away from me over the last decade. I made a conscious decision to  renew this important part in my life.  I promised myself that in 4 years when I finished  my BS ,  I would “expand my horizons” to include more than the physical world around me.

A few months after receiving my degree , I began focusing my attention on spirituality. A friend asked me to visit Health Ecology in Cameron Village in Raleigh, NC.  I met Veronica Vela, a Reiki Master . She suggested I study the “Course in Miracles”.  I told her I did not know anything about miracles.  She convinced me to start the weekly study group.  I remained in this group for 2 years.

The Course In Miracles changed my life.  I found the basis to life is love and there is nothing else. The opposite of love is fear, but fear cannot exist if you come from love.  The hardest part was learning forgiveness.  I learned that to forgive someone does not mean you condone their actions, but that you will not let that negative emotion hold your back from your true light.  This is especially true when learning to forgive yourself.  There are no mistakes, just opportunities to learn and grow.  Living in the past keeps you from expanding your horizons and have a truly fulfilling life!

I have tried to live my life with love and forgiveness and it has been truly remarkable.  I got married at 36 and had my only child at 42. I found myself a widow at 50 but knew that my spiritual strength would get me through this.  A few years ago, I was struck with autoimmune arthritis and began walking with a cane overnight. Within the next year, I had double knee replacement and was white water rafting.  My friend and mentor, Angela Coulter, originator of Trinity Energy progression, lead me back to meditation and connecting with my spiritual self.  This helped me through a difficult time , reinforcing the power  of connection to your inner strength.

I now work in energy healing and nutritional health.  I became a Trinity Energy Progression Practitioner,  Reiki Master Practitioner and Ordained Minster in the last several years. “Expanding my horizons” in this area of my life has been one of the most fulfilling things I have ever done.  I feel at peace with myself, even when it seems that everything else is falling apart.  I know that how I perceive the world defines my life.  I truly feel that life is wonderful and I can not wait for something new!

Always look within for guidance when it gets tough in the “real world”. Try listening to a recorded meditation to quiet your thoughts.  http://roadtoawakening.net/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/HeartFocus-7mins.mp3 If  you have trouble doing this, ask a friend for help. The next choice is to seek someone that does energy healing and that you feel connected  to.  Look for someone who comes from unconditional love  and without judgement of your thoughts and feelings.

I have been truly blessed by my spiritual mentors. I  love  helping others find the peace I have found.

 

Jan 252015
 

 

 The Angel Oak is thought to be one of the oldest living things east of the Mississippi River.   Angel Oak is a live oak. Towering over 65 feet high, the Angel Oak has shaded John’s Island, South Carolina, for over 1400 years, and would have sprouted 1000 years before Columbus’ arrival in the New World. Today the live oak has a diameter of spread reaching 160 feet, a circumference of nearly 25 feet, and covers 17,100 square feet of ground. http://www.angeloaktree.org/history.htm 

When I first saw the Angel Oak while traveling in South Carolina, I felt it’s immense energy .  When I touched the tree trunk it seemed that I was connected to the tree and the earth.  It was such a comforting feeling.  It felt like I was part of the tree’s past  as well as the present.   Being in the presence of such a magnificent living tree is awe inspiring.  Nature has always been my first choice for feeling connected spiritually to my self and others.

When I was young, I would play in the woods behind my house for hours by myself.  I would imagine wood nymphs and fairies during my visits to the stream in the woods.

During the course of my life , I have encountered deaths of loved ones, my father at age 19, my mom at age 29 and my husband  at age 50.  With every loss, I was profoundly comforted by family and friends.  Even with all the love given to me,  I still had to turn to my spiritual center to go forward with my life.   These events  propelled me to increase my spiritual search.  My mother died in a coma and  I was not able to say goodbye.  Three months later after being depressed (one of the few times in my life) I was visited by her spirit.  I was told by my friend from Taiwan, that they believe the spirit of a loved one visits you about 3 moths after death.  I knew that my spirituality was an important part of my life and began following that path as soon as I graduated from college 4 years later.

It began with the Course in Miracles in 1986 and my first Reiki class.   I am still continuing to learn.  I became a Trinity Energy Practitioner ( founded by Angel Coulter)  in 2012 and an Ordained Minister in 2014 through New Earth Aquarian Church , founded by Veronica Vela.  My more recent  spiritual search was initiated  after I acquired inflammatory arthritis and started walking with a cane overnight.  Learning to mediate deeply was necessary to help with the pain. I found that guided mediation was a great way to start.  (http://www.roadtoawakening.net/AudioDownloads/ExpandingConsciousness.mp3).  My first serious attempt resulted in me sobbing and my head bobbing uncontrollably.  I called Angela, the friend who sent me the link, and told her something was wrong. She laughed and said that was a good thing to happen. I was totally confused but was told it meant I was really releasing the pain and connecting.
 

These benefits  caused me to understand the importance of meditation. Now I am on a mission to introduce meditation and energy work to everyone.  We all want peace and sometimes do not know where to start.  Taking time for yourself and listening to your inner guidance is not as easy as it sounds.  It takes practice and time.  I started slow and encourage others to try mediating for 5 minutes a day,  gradually increasing to 20 minutes or more.

I also find it much easier to feel connected to others and the earth  by spending time in nature.  Even if you just sit on the porch and look at the birds.  Our life can be so hectic, that we do not feel we have the time for this.  But it is amazing how much more you can accomplish if you center yourself first and listen to that inner voice.

Now I wonder, after meeting the Angel Oak, if the fairies and wood nymphs I met when I was young were really from my imagination!